Dear little Daisy,
Today we woke up and as it was a beautiful sunny day we went to a local garden centre for some lunch. A little bit random but we like finding geeky little activities to do together. You get a lot of attention wherever you go. Especially from the elder generation. They tend to rub silver into the palm of your hands for good luck - your piggy bank gets bigger the more you get out and about!
You also get a lot of attention because of the amount of hair you have. It’s a pretty good amount and I’m glad about that, considering the amount of heartburn I had whilst pregnant with you! It’s beautiful and soft and I can’t wait until your little headbands fit you.
It’s crazy how much more I love you with each day and each night. I won’t lie though - the night are hard. I’m someone who lacks a lot of energy, my iron levels are low and I’m pretty dependent on a good nights sleep. But I’m exhausted. You’re worth every sleepless night, but I really definitely am struggling with it.
So instead of writing to you right now, I’m going to try get in a little cat nap.
Lots of love,
Daisy’s favourite blanket
Yesterday we received a parcel through the post - a beautiful hand made quilt/blanket made by my lovely aunty! It’s gorgeous and as you can see Daisy loves it. Today we’re going out for the afternoon as it’s a perfect sunny (but chilly) day.
The health visitor came round yesterday and weighed Daisy. She was 7lb 6ozs when she was born. She now weighs 8lb 9ozs so she’s putting on a healthy amount of weight. She’s also apparently pretty long for her weight which is going to be amusing considering I’m tiny (4”11)!! On another note.. It’s Andrew’s birthday tomorrow and I want us three to go to the seaside for the day!
I find it a little hard making time to write up a decent blog post at the moment. Everything is so hectic and I’m still running on adrenaline. When Daisy is quiet I tend to get on with jobs or just attempt to relax and sleep.
When life calms down and summers here, well do more exciting things and my blog will hopefully be more exciting too! But for now, it’s feeding time!
My gorgeous little Boo in Blue
Dear little Daisy,
Today was our first full day just me and you. Daddy is back at work now and we both miss him when he works long twelve hour shifts. But it’s lovely when he comes home to us again. You and me had a cosy and lazy sunday, relaxing in our pyjamas and drinking milk (tea for me though). You were a bit of a moody bum last night, so I’m pretty tired. But you’ve slept a lot today and given me time to put my feet up. So thank you <3
Your hair is getting lighter by the day - and it has a beautiful hint of auburn too. You’ve got a little rash on your forehead but we think it’s just a normal ‘baby rash’. We’ll check with the healthy visitor monday any ways.
I can’t stop taking photos of you. You’re just too beautiful and perfect in every way. My gorgeous little Boo.
It’s almost time for your bottle.
Two weeks old
It’s no lie that time really does fly when you have a baby. I’m really not sure where these past two weeks have gone? I blinked and they disappeared. I already feel like Daisy has grown and developed as a little personality. She’s much more alert during the day, trying to focus her eyes on people here and there and listening for voices. She has a fascination with sticking her tongue out and attempting to eat her own hand. We had to cut her nails yesterday because she kept scratching herself. We gave her a bath and she’s slowly starting to enjoy it more (I think!).
Today we have lots of family coming over for a little meal so we’re going to get Daisy lovely and dressed up in a pretty little dress and some tights. At the moment she’s snoozing away in her moses basket making lots and lots of noises - she’s one loud little sleeper.
I won’t lie - motherhood is amazing - but I have times where she’s crying so much and I struggle a little. Not because I don’t know what she wants but because it hurts to see her cry so much! It’s usually when she’s trying to poo. She gets herself in a little state and is quite clearly in pain. I just wish I could take her pain away and deal with it for her. Poor little bubba :(
Ah, where are the days going?!
If you told me this time last year that by March I’d have a beautiful baby girl I would probably laugh and explain profoundly that children aren’t a part of my plan and I’m not a very maternal person. Fast forward through that year and here I am. Daisy was never planned but she was most definitely wanted.
I remember before taking a pregnancy test, laying in the bath and looking down at my stomach. I kind of felt different. I remember putting my hand on my tummy and thinking about what it would feel like to have a little human being in there. A few days later, I just hadn’t stopped thinking about it so I took a test and it came out positive. From then on my life was about this tiny little baby. And I really wouldn’t have it any other way.
The sleepless nights are hard. There’s no doubt about that. I try and sleep during the day when she does, but that’s also hard because at that kind of time I try do housework and get a little bit organised. It’s hard to wake up to a screaming baby at 4am and trying to figure out what they need and in what order. But if you get a little routine going and have everything there and ready it does get easier. The first few nights in the hospital were the easiest because I couldn’t get out of bed so the nurses and midwives helped. But they were also the hardest because I wanted so badly to get out of the bed and comfort her myself.
But the good outweighs the bad. Not much beats waking up at six am to a wide eyed little baby who just wants to be cuddled and fed. The minute she’s out of my sight I miss her and whenever other people cuddle her I just want her straight back so I can instead. I’m most definitely running on adrenaline at the moment. I realise all my posts are very very baby related at the moment and maybe a little boring, but I don’t care! I just want to ramble on about how much I love her!!
Dear little Daisy,
What I’m looking forward to doing with you:
I’m looking forward to your first smile - the kind where I know it’s a smile and not wind. I’m looking forward to taking you to the lakes in the summer to sit on the grass and watch the world go by. I’m looking forward to sitting in the garden on beautiful sunny days and watching you take in the world.
I’m looking forward to the warm winter cuddles on the sofa, watching the same children’s movie over and over. I’m looking forward to your first experience with snow. Your first christmas. your first steps. Your first words. Your first bicycle. Your first day at school.
Most of all I’m looking forward to seeing you develop as a person - watching you become Daisy.
There’s so much I’m looking forward to doing with you, but right now I’m taking in each moment with each little breath of fresh air you take. I’m really enjoying motherhood and I’m really enjoying you, little Daisy. you’re lying next to me in your moses basket right now, after a bit of a rough night (you decided to cry through the majority of it) I have a very bad headache and am exhausted. But I look at you sleeping in your moses basket and I couldn’t feel happier. It’s all worth it. It really, really is.
I love you to the moon and stars and through the galaxy and back a million times over. My tiny little Daisy boo!
A few things I learnt after giving birth
Half way through being pregnant I really started to struggle with the idea of having to push this tiny little human-being out of me. As it got nearer and nearer to my due date it started to terrify me ever so slightly! and when I started having contractions I knew I was in labour and the only thing I could do was silently cry and shake - I was just so nervous. It’s that feeling of not knowing. What I learnt (well, what I wish I was told before) was;
Just go with it
You’re in labour now - there is literally nothing you can do. Go with your natural instincts and really listen to how your body wants to deal with the pain. Sounds a bit weird? But everyone has their own different way of dealing with the pain. Some scream, some talk, pace, walk, cry. I was silent and put myself in my own little bubble and waited patiently for the epidural.
Leave your dignity at the door and pick it up on your way out
This couldn’t be any more spot on if it tried! At first I tried so hard to be as elegant as possible - i even tried to put makeup on (gave up quickly). I had so many midwives, nurses and doctors look at me down below, I had people help me go to the toilet, I had nurses give me bed baths. After labour I really just didn’t care!
You really do forget the pain
At the time you really don’t think you could ever do it all over again. But an hour or so after my little one was born I admitted I would go through the whole process all over again if I had to. I had a stressful labour but after she was placed on my chest I couldn’t feel anything but pure love for her!
Being discharged can take longer than you think
Depending on how your labour goes, the discharging process can take a while. I was in hospital 4 days after my little Daisy was born. But a friend of mine who had a baby a few days after was discharged almost the same day! So it all really does depend on how the labour goes - just don’t be disappointed if you can’t go home straight away. I was, and it made the time go a lot slower.
Pretty much anything can happen
BUT you’re in the best place and well looked after, surrounded by people that can help you through it and relieve you of as much pain as possible. The time goes quicker than you think and it’s all oh so worth it in the end.
and have a healthy recovery!